well.. i can't believe i am 24 already.

its already too late i feel. but i do feel i had to put things in place before i could take the plunge.

i don't even know if it would be worthwhile, after all i am just a newbie.

so as everyone knows, i've been talking that its my dream to one day be able to make something creative of my own.

music, painting, sculpting are not an option. so its only logical it is movies.

from kalkaji to hollywood, there isn't a film school i've not searched, researched, re-searched.

tried to get into workshops but couldn't. decided, who cares, i'd do it all on my own.

got myself a macbook few days back, because i was told too

did some research online and from the basics of nle to the deepest complexities of a red one camera,

i have tried to study, to google as much i can,

and somehow be ready for anything and everything that is thrown at me.

i know its impossible, but this is the only way i can feed some confidence into me.

and then there is always a first time, after which people 'd say "oh he did it".

so what is the first plunge

hmmm.. hp space, a reality series that is gonna be about creativity.

someone told me about with 2 weeks left for the online audition.

for someone pretending to be too passionate about this,

i was too lazy to do something about it. and time passes.

the last day had a sense of disappointment and checked their space,

and... the audition days were extended by 7 days.

7 days in which 4 days were for me, no work, no commitments to anything.

but being true to myself, i did nothing for 5 days.

and the last 2 days, for 48 straight hours, burning my head.

i did something on my own. all on my own.

which for the first time in my life has given me creative satisfaction.

and even to me i was exposed, how raw i was, i am.

but something like this has educated me so much, i never expected, i can never explain.

check it out at my hp space pitch page